Hello beautiful people,
Wow ~ what a year! I feel we are being asked again and again to learn to ride the wave. The wave of change. The wave of viewing our most shadowy bits. The wave of new information coming to light. The wave of last minute changes. The wave of no planning ahead. Moment to moment. Day to day. Show up in the best way you can. Shifting through all the noise. Be as present as you can. Some days are better than others. Breathe. Pause. Move. How are YOU doing riding this wave?? I'd honesty love to hear from you.
For me some days are definitely better than others. Some days I've buried my head in the sheets. Some days I've cried for hours. Some days I've laid in the sun and found beautiful moments of grace. Some days have pushed all my edges. Some days I've confronted parts of me I thought I'd worked through years ago. Some days I've courageously stepped IN. Some days I've connected deeply with friends or loved ones. Some days I've found it hard to be in my body and others all I wanted to do was touch my body. It is indeed an amazing time to be alive.
It feels like now more than ever we need to have such a level of grace and compassion for ourselves and all those around us.
That being said I feel it's also very important for me acknowledge and share the deep dive I've been immersed in this last year and the path I'm continuing to take. It feels important to further clarify my stance on the topics at hand (if it wasn't understood already) as well as the community I desire to cultivate moving forward. This newsletter is a call IN ~ I hope you will join me!!
Through these last few months I've witnessed a lot of harmful acts in the wellness/spiritual/healing community where folks don't want to bring the current state of affairs into those circles. Where some have felt these topics were "political" and don't have a place in healing communities. Where specifically white practitioners and space holders didn't understand the level of harm that was being done to black, indigenous, people of color (BIPOC) while in their spaces due to their lack of education, understanding and not yet unpacking their white privilege, bias and racism. It was awful to witness, especially the reaction of these practitioners when called out or in to this deeper work.... IN HEALING SPACES. IN TRANSFORMATION SPACES. Is this not what we all are working towards??
And it was humbling. Knowing I had also done some of these things. Knowing I myself had more work to do, more to unpack and more courage to cultivate.
Black Lives Matter.
Black Lives more than matter, they are in fact Sacred.
And this doesn't mean that other lives aren't important, yes all human life is important, but right now black lives are disproportionately at stake... every single day and this is nothing new. It's been happening far too long. My black friends don't feel safe. Every day. It's a stress to leave their homes, watch their children grow to be black men and women. Whats going to happen when they are pulled over by cops? walk down the street? sleep in their own beds? go jogging? imagine what it would like to feel this level of stress, every day, in your body?
The bottom line: this isn't politics ~ we are talking about peoples LIVES being at stake on a daily basis.
I have been on a deep journey this last year and a half learning and studying specifically with/from black, brown and indigenous womxn of color. It is SO important we follow their lead at this time! It is SO important we amplify their voices and their movements at this time. To listen deeply. There is a wellspring of deep wisdom, connection to the earth, rootedness, truth speak, connection to the ancestors and true healing that I rarely witness in ANY white spaces. Including my own. Yes, READ THAT AGAIN.
Here is the deeper awareness and message that keeps landing on my heart:
You cannot be on the healing or transformation journey and NOT do antiracism or personal identity work. These call outs and call ins are actually a soul calling deeper into your humanity. Calling you deeper into your divinity. They are incredible gifts.
Into why you are here on this planet. At this specific time. We are all needed NOW more than ever. With our eyes and hearts wide open. You will unravel truth and more specifically YOUR truth and authenticity. You will realize all the ways this oppressive system we all live in is hurting ALL of us.
AND you cannot do Anti Racism work without also doing your own deep dive on shame, inner child and ancestral healing. Because these are things contributing to reactions, flailing, defensiveness, immobility, more harm and it's keep folks stuck in a spin out.
I know. It's happened to me and it still does sometimes because this journey is that of a lifetime. Will you join me??
With love and infinite gratitude,
Ellinor Grace is a Dreamer, Visionary, Creator of Sacred Spaces, Healer, Artist & World Wanderer